I'm Just Like This

If you think I am a QUEEN

Maybe it's true

I am the QUEEN that controlling all over your life.

If you think I am a HOT-TEMPERED GIRL

Maybe it also true

Coz I am enjoying throwing my anger to you

If you think I am a BORED-KIND-OF-GIRL

Maybe it's true as you think of it

I am the one who never let you enjoy yourself

If you think I am FULL OF JEALOUSY

Maybe it's really true

Coz I not a kind of girl who enjoy seeing you laughing with other chicks

If you think I am a BAD GIRL

It's really me!

Coz I am not a GOOD GIRL and I am not a kind of ANGEL

If you think you CAN'T GO THROUGH ME

Then, say it to me

Coz I am not that WICKED to stop you from LEAVING me

And lastly,

For all the things that you think I am going to be

I am TRULLY SORRY

I am TRULLY SORRY

Coz made you think at first that I am PERFECT

But the TRUTH is

I AM PERFECTLY IMPERFECT

I AM JUST LIKE THIS

This is the Way I Wanted to Be!

Cheers! I'm bored and I have no idea what I suppose to do.. I have no mood to do my assignments. I have no mood to eat coz I'm fasting. I just feel like I want to fly to my hometown. *sigh*Is this called HOMESICK? I'm homesick??Do I? *sigh again* I don't really like this feeling. I'm strong! Yeah!

Just at the moment I'm thinking about going back to home...I suddenly realize that God sent me here to test my strength and determination. I'm the one who ask Him to sent me here..far away from my family..live in another place to gain new experiences and He made it real and...here I am now..far far away from my family..far far away from my hometown.

I've chosen my own destiny. God gave me many choices for my own future..but I've chosen this way to live in my future.. I still remember the day I ask God to make a way and open my eyes to see my destiny. I prayed to Him and I keep believe that He'll give me a good destiny. And, He answered my prayer.

For my SPM examination result,I'm satisfied coz I got what I deserved. My SPM result was quite good.I'm not disappointed even I scored 'D' for my Additional Mathematics. I deserved that score..I know my own strength and weakness.. I'm not really good in any numerology subject although I'm studying science subject as Chemistry and Biology(i'm not good enough in these subjects too..but I'm not bad at all..coz I got C for my Chemistry and B for my Biology |^___^| ).

After received my SPM result, I'm thinking about furthering my study. I guess..that's the hardest moment I ever have coz I have to think carefully where I suppose to go. If I made a mistake on it..maybe I'll not success in my future. I got some offers to further my study.

1. SPA 8 interview offers for medical courses trainee.

2. UITM Kota Kinabalu in Accountancy Course.

3. Matriculation 2 Years Programme.

4. Cosmopoint College (I guess I can choose my desired course)

5. IPG interview offer, majoring in Bahasa Melayu Course.

6. Pra-U @ Form Six in Science course.

But..thinking of my finance support, I refuse to accept UITM coz I have to pay expensive fees and I don't want to be in debt with PTPTn. Plus, I don't have any interest in Accountancy and I have no basic on it coz I'm not taking Accounting subject while I was in middle school.

I'm not interested to further my study at private college such as Cosmopoint college.The fees are expensive and once more...I don't want to be in debt with PTPTN.

Matriculation - I'm tired to study about sciences and I've rejected the offer,too.

SPA 8 interview- yeah~ I've chosen the Pharmacy course and got interviewed...but I'm not really in a mood to be interviewed coz that was my first interview and everything was in rush. I'm not ready for it.Actually, I don't want to be interviewed coz I really really have no interest in medical study...but my mom said I should try..

IPG interview- I hoped for this.I prayed to God so that my name will be in the list. And..tadaaa~~ God answered my prayer! I'm so glad coz my name was on the list to be interviewed. ^^

To wait for the interview result, I entered the Pra-U programme a.k.a Form Six for 1 week and half if I'm not mistaken..but..the truth..I'm really really want to be a teacher..once more..I prayed to God for my interview result..

And the result is......

Tadaaa~~~

Here I am now..I'm furthering my study in Education at IPG Kampus Bahasa Melayu as a teacher trainee..majoring Bahasa Melayu, minoring Pendidikan Jasmani and Pengajian Sosial. That was my choice to be a teacher. Although God gave me another choices...but this is the way I wanted to be..I can't lie to myself that I love to be a teacher. That was my dream since I understand the meaning of ambition. The most important is I want to gain more knowledge while I'm studying here and while I have the chance.. I want to be a real teacher and a great teacher.

I promised to myself that I will never regret my own choice. I want to be success in my life. I want to live in my future as a great person. I don't want to live my life by the others sympathies.I want to make my family proud of me. When people ask about me, I want my parents proudly say 'That's my daughter'.

Dear Family,

I'll make it all for you.

I promise to do my best.

I will never give up even I'm often fall.

I love you all.

p/s: This is just the beginning. The life is just started. I want to live my future not my past..How about you? Think carefully for your future.

>> My grammar suck! Just ignore it. ^__^

Sibuk lagi bah!

Yeehaa!!!
Baru siap edit blog.. amacam? Cantikkah? <hehehehe>
Lama x update blog.. tetiba tangan gatal untuk update blog saya yang comel loteh ni <perasan>
Sekarang ni dah mula sibuk dengan assignment yang berlambak-lambak.
Tambah lagi..sekarang ni bulan puasa. Kamu puasa x? Saya puasa tau! :)
Apabila dah mula sibuk ni..saya pun semakin malas. Pelikkan? hahahahaha
Assignment banyak..tapi saya malas betul mau siapkan. Ada siapa2 yang mau tolong siapkan??
Nanti saya belanja makan gula-gula :D
Apa-apa pun..marilah kita bersama-sama merajinkan diri.
Merapu jak saya ni.haha
Ok lah..nantikan entry yang seterusnya ya..(yang akan siap apabila saya x sibuk)
Sekarang ni sibuk lagi bah! :D


p/s ; saya suka menyanyi..jom gi karaoke :D

My Free-time Job :)

Hey! It's been a long time not updating my little cute blog(ahakz!)..
Nothing happened to me..I'm just not in a mood to write..
Got a lots of idea to write here but I just can't help myself from being lazy.. (here's the laziness..L.O.L)
Wow!! I just realized that the time pass too fast~
It's the end of July now..and here's the August come.. 
The assignment start to bother me..(well..I don't really mind it coz yeah! I'm a student and a student should do what a student must do!what am I talking about?? don't mind it..)
Well..it's been a long time not seeing my family too..of course I'm not..coz they're at Sabah..and me?? 
Here I am..further my study at Kuala Lumpur(maybe I can call it as THE KEY OF HELL a.k.a KEYHELL...<just a joke,okay? :D)
I'm a bit relieved now.. ask me why?? 
I'll answer..'coz I've passed the most busy month' ahaha..there's too many activity in our IPG on this month(I mean July).. lots of things to do..
And now..for the next month 'till the end of this semester.. 
I have to concentrate on my studies..then achieve higher pointers(coz in the last semester...I only got 3.65<CGPA> and I want more..anyway..I'm grateful coz my pointer is not bad.. :D )
Okay..I think that's enough to mess my post..ahaa.. 
Let see what I do to fulfill my free time and boringness..
I LOVE EDITING PICTURES! Yeah!! 
Nobody can stop me from doing this..even I'm not a pro and I don't have any professional Photoshop .but I really LOVE editing pictures! 
Here are some of my edited pictures.. opssss..before that.. no copycats ok?! Ask my permission first. :)

 My own idea..edited Coral  Paintshop Pro X2(trial version only :D)

P/s All of the pictures except for the picture that I've mentioned was edited using Photoscape.. just a simple picture editor but I really love it and it's really easy to use.. :)

Everything's Gonna be Okay

I’m quite happy now. Some problems solved. Relationship between my friends became better day to day. Our class won the ‘SAYEMBARA PUISIRAMA’ competition among PPISMP Semester 2. I’m proud! Hell yeah! Coz I’m one of the contestant. Ahaa~~ J

Me and him? I don’t know..seems getting better too. But I believe with my own feeling..and perhaps..he have the same feeling as me J.. Dear you..I’m happy spending time together with you. Forget about my lame memory..Forget the problem…KEEP Laughing and happy..happy day J Thanx!

Exam is just around the corner. but I've prepared nothing for the upcoming exam. How relax I am right?lol  <acting cool,huh?>

Reaching the end of this semester..preparing to move on the next stage in IPG.. and the next semester..I'll be the senior to my junior. and dear junior-to-be at IPG Kampus Bahasa Melayu. Don't worry..I'm a good senior. LOL..

And now I have to focus on the exam. I have to reach my target for the pointer(3.5).. forget about DotA for a while.. after the exam, i'll play DotA again. I'll make a new Garena acc coz the old one was hacked by someone somewhere. LOL..idk..

The thing I can't wait for is... going back to my hometown 'KOTA BELUD,SABAH'. no doubt! I miss my family damn much. I want to hug Ara. I want to kiss my newborn niece, Elmavera. I want to talk with mum, dad and my whole family. I miss my messy room. I miss everything at there..

Oh.. I'm gonna stop here.. I still got class for tomorrow.Pendidikan Jasmani. Yeay! I loike the most. 

P/s Ignore the incorrect grammar... :)

Assignment dah..Exam lagi..

Wah... leganya hati apabila selesai menyiapkan dan menghantar semua 'assignment' yang berlambak-lambak. Rasa lega sangat. But.. assignment selesai x bermakna dah selesai perjuangan. exam masih setia menanti. Erm.. lepas siapkan semua assignment ni, ada pula kerja lain yang menanti. 

Malam sayembara puisi kitaorang yang anjurkan. jadi AJK Dokumentasi lagi. ni yang best ni. saya memang suka dengan tugas ni. tapi.. yang x bestnya apabila rakan setugas tidak membantu. apa-apa pun, saya sangat 'salute' dengan classmates saya yang membantu menyiapkan dokumentasi Bahasa Melayu Kontekstual tu. walaupun masing2 penat selepas melalui ujian amali Pendidikan Jasmani, semua masih sempat mengerahkan tenaga untuk menghasilkan dokumentasi tu. fuhh! caya la.. korang memang baik beb!. 

Dokumentasi tu memang tugas saya. tapi itu x bermakna semua tu saya lakukan seorang.mati aku beb! hehe, semua orang haruslah bekerjasama sebab markah tu bukan untuk saya seorang kan3? whatever... trimas buat semua yang membantu. walaupun ada yang still x membantu langsung.but it's okay. yang penting kerja tu dah siap. :) my next plan is.....

  STUDY FOR THE UPCOMING EXAM. wish luck for me n my friends. :) 

GOOD BYE 2010,WELCOME 2011...

Well..i'm at K.L right now..gonna stand on semester 2 in IPG KBM..

 i'm grateful coz i passed the last year exam..thanx to God even i don't work too hard for it,i pass it...

lol..i'm hoping to start a new life style here...

Glad that i passed the 1st semester exam..wish me luck for this 2nd semester..

it's getting hard but i'll try my best... 

WOAH!! life is hard without money here.nothing to eat,no money to buy some needed stuff.. 

all i can do is relying on GOD to keep alive. 

will update my blog when i'm not busy.. gotta go...:)