OFFICIALLY SSSSSS

I don't like your coz you:

• a liar
• dishonest to me
• always ignore me
• made me feel I'm not your special one (yeah, I know, I'm not your special one, right?)
• don't text me back when I text you
• suck!
• hurts me with your lies
• takes me for granted
• don't love me enough
• a coward
• can't handle me at my worst (so, i guess you don't deserve me at my best)
• make me cry everyday
• always tell me lies
• give 1001 reasons when I ask you to come
• can't understand me

That's all. Thank you. Life must go on and should be happier after this. Happily ever after.

Imperfection

I am not good at all
I am not an angel nor a devil
I am not perfect in anything or everything but I know anything or everything that I should know
I am not pretty but I have my own attraction point
I am not a genius but I learn fast
I am not a good writer but I know how to write nice poem
I am not a good student but I know how to survive at my school


I can't cook well but I know how to cook the food I love
I can't ride bicycle but I know how to run when I need to run
I can't play well in sports but I know how to play the games I wanted to play
I can't sing well as the singers but I know how to sing the songs I like
I can't dance well as the dancers but I know how to dance nicely
I can't play DOTA like a pro but I know how to play DOTA


I don't get 4.00 plat in my exam but I know how to get myself pass the exam
I don't study hard but I know how to study smart
I don't know much about ICT but I know what ICT is


I am just an ordinary girl just like the others
I made mistakes but I've tried hard to avoid troubles
I get jealous when other girls tried to approach my boyfriend
I get mad when pimples are everywhere at my face
I can cry easily when something touched my heart
I love babies and children
I wear make-up
I am addicted to nice hair
I go shopping with my girlfriends
I can wear high heel
I love prom night
I love trying new styles


And all about who I am..
I am just me and I have my own imperfection
Coz real human is not perfect
So, be grateful for who you are and whatever you are


p/s you don't have to be perfect in everything to be a real human...coz you'll never be perfect...

Pure or Fake?

Once I love someone

It’s hard to let him go

Once I love someone

I’ll have my faith in him

Once I love someone

I’ll not looking for other guys

Once I love someone

I put my trust in him

Once I love someone

I can’t stand for all the lies behind my back

And that’s the reason when…

Someone I love tell me lies

I can’t trust him as much as I trust him before

For me:

A pure relationship has no lies inside

A pure relationship has to be sincere at all

If the relationship you’ve made is just for fun

Then,

I won’t stand for a fake relationship because it’s just a WASTE!

So,

Which is your choice?

A pure relationship or a fake relationship?

*The best choice is don't take any risk if you're not ready. Just wait until the moment is come to us. Trust me..God has prepared someone for us. And for sure..His choice is the best for us! ^^

I'm Just Like This

If you think I am a QUEEN

Maybe it's true

I am the QUEEN that controlling all over your life.

If you think I am a HOT-TEMPERED GIRL

Maybe it also true

Coz I am enjoying throwing my anger to you

If you think I am a BORED-KIND-OF-GIRL

Maybe it's true as you think of it

I am the one who never let you enjoy yourself

If you think I am FULL OF JEALOUSY

Maybe it's really true

Coz I not a kind of girl who enjoy seeing you laughing with other chicks

If you think I am a BAD GIRL

It's really me!

Coz I am not a GOOD GIRL and I am not a kind of ANGEL

If you think you CAN'T GO THROUGH ME

Then, say it to me

Coz I am not that WICKED to stop you from LEAVING me

And lastly,

For all the things that you think I am going to be

I am TRULLY SORRY

I am TRULLY SORRY

Coz made you think at first that I am PERFECT

But the TRUTH is

I AM PERFECTLY IMPERFECT

I AM JUST LIKE THIS

I am Me Once More by Zee Avi

No, I really don't think so 
That you think I'd be incapable of being on my own 
No, I really don't think so 
That I would for a second let you back in through my door 

I have spent many a nights 
Even when you are by my side 
I shed tears I couldn't dry 
I shed tears I couldn't dry 

But I should thank you for 
Taking my blindfold off now 
I ain't jaded no more, no more 
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye 
That could only mean I am me, once more 

You would turn your head the other way 
So you won't have to listen to what I have to say 
You assume that I needed you 
But you didn't realize that I needed no one but myself 
I needed no one but myself 

But I should thank you for 
Taking my blindfold off now 
I ain't jaded no more, no more 
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye 
That could only mean I am me, once more 

That could only mean I am me, once more 
That could only mean I am me, once more

P/s I am me once more <credits to Zee Avi> very nice song and i love it damn much! :).. no matter what you say about me..no matter the things i do.. i'm me.. and i'm just me :)

Disember

DISEMBER

   Sangat setia dan pemurah. (yep..this is right..saya setia dgn org yg setia dgn saya..pemurah?ya juga)

   Bersifat patriotik. (ini pun betul!saya sangat cintakan negara saya!)

   Sangat aktif dalam permainan dan pergaulan. (yep.really true!)

   Sikap kurang sabar dan tergesa-gesa. (ni pun betul juga...hihihi..)

   Bercita-cita tinggi. (cita2 sy tinggi juga la..mao jadi org yg sangat berjaya)

   Suka menjadi orang yang berpengaruh dalam organisasi. (ni betul sikit je..i don't care)

   Seronok bila didampingi. 9ya..i love people around me.and i'm excited with them!)

   Suka bercampur dengan orang. (saya x suka jadi kera sumbang or racist)

   Suka dipuji, diberi perhatian dan dibelai. (ya..saya sangat suka akan perhatian drpd org yg saya syg..)

   Sangat jujur, amanah dan bertolak ansur. (ya..if i said you're ugly, means sy cakap benar.ok? :D)

   Tidak pandai berpura-pura. (oh no! ni salah! kadang2 saya hipokrit.sometimes, saya cakap saya happy walaupun saya tengah sedih)

   Cepat marah. 9this is right!.sy susah kawal emosi)

   Perangai yang mudah berubah-ubah. (yep!sometimes,saya mcm angel..sometimes sy jadi devil)

   Tidak ego walaupun harga dirinya sangat tinggi. 9x pasti..maybe kot..)

   Benci pada kongkongan. 9ya!i love freedom.and i hate being caged! tapi..apakan daya..)

   Suka berlawak. (buat lawak bodoh pun jadi la..pastu gelak sorang2..haha)

   Pandai buat lawak dan berfikiran logik. (saya x pandai buat lawak.tapi saya mmg fikir logik..)

P/s : saya x ingat saya copy di mana ni..huhuhuhu.. baca saja la..

Read THIS and you'll KNOW the real me

Okay. Focus on this post. I don't want your attention.i just wanna tell you the truth. K.. 

First, I'm a girl and I am very sure that you've already know about this.

So..I don't have to mention you about this. The point is...God is the first in my life.

But,I'm gone bad. I'm sorry.Please lead me into Your way back. BACK!BACK!

Second, My family are VVIP in my life. 

I'm the third daughter in my family.  And I have 2 sisters and 2 more younger sisters. 

Simple,we are all girls. And I am very sure that mom and dad was hoped for a son in our family. But..it's all in God hands. Maybe He already planned something in our family and we have to accept it. 

Anyway, I'm happy be the part of my family. Even if sometimes we arguing for some small matters,but I'm enjoy with this life. Even my family are not the rich one and living without perfection in anythings..but I'm glad coz I'm still alive and healthy until now.

Praise the Lord! :)

And DAMN SURE! I love my family with all my heart. 

Mom,dad,sisters.. I love you all. Yeah! I know. I'm stubborn.but at least,i'm not stupid and God gave me a brilliant brain and not-so-pretty face(AND I APPRECIATE IT ALL) nO douBt! :)

Third, FRIENDSHIP. Yeah! I love all my friends even if they hate me. I have no reason to hate people coz God never ask His people to hate each other.( I know this from the HOLY BIBLE). 

There's no enemy in my life's dictionary. And I don't wanna have any enemy until the end of my life.

Love me friends..coz I'll love you back as you deserve :)

Forth, MY FACE!

Some people misunderstood and trying to avoid me because they judge me from my face. 

Yeah! Some people said my face looks ARROGANT!DAMN! so UNTRUE people.

As wise people said,don't judge the book by it's cover.

So,please don't judge me by my face. Know me,and you'll know the real me. 

I am very sure that you'll find I'm interesting and your prejudices are totally wrong.

Fifth, MY ATTITUDE.

As I said, know me and you'll know my real attitude.

Sometimes, I don't show you my real attitude. Hypocrite? No.. I have my own reason to do that.

I'm not a quiet+nerd girl. But I don't really understand why I became like this when I reached K.L.

Ask my old-bestfriends. They know me better. 

I'm a talkative girl. Sometimes may outspoken.

But  I know my heart never lies that I got a big sympathy for those who deserve it.

I love FREEDOM. and I really *dislike* being caged like a bird.

Oh!Please..this is my life and I have my right to do anything I want+like as long it's for my own good.

I love to take my own decision in whatever I do.

 And I'll make sure that I'm taking the best decision for myself.

Dear family,no need to worry about me coz I'm 18 and reaching 19 now.

I know which is good or bad. But sorry coz sometimes,I can't control myself.

Thanx to my dear mom,dad n whole family coz never ask me to do what they want or what they like.

I respect them as they also respect me to do my own decision.

Plus,they never caged me as the bird. And I'm free to do anything as long as I'm not doing wrong.

But,mom,dad,family..I'm getting wicked here. Please pray for me. Please.Please.Please.

I'm afraid if I'll be a useless person. I'm here to fulfill my life with knowledge.

I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT.

Sixth,about LOVE.

Oh dear! I'm so fragile. I found myself as someone who really hard to fall in love with someone.

And I found myself as a faithful lover. but when a boy tend to hurt me,I just can say sorry.

Coz my heart really hard to accept the hurts.

Forgiving doesn't meant I'll forget the hurts. I just don't wanna be your enemy.

And I'll leave when there's third person in my relationship.

Experiences in failure of relationship with boys made me afraid and got no 100% trust to any boys I ever meet.

And for the next relationship, I don't expect it will end up with marriage until God ask me to marry someone who's really love me. 

If God say YES in the relationship,I'll say YES too. But if the answer is NO,then SORRY.

I don't wanna waste my tears anymore. I don't find there's an advantage to cry for someone who's never care for us.

p/s : any doubt..just leave a comment or ask me. I'll answer dear.

LOL

Hey ya..
Just remember my password.lol.i'm kinda forgetful girl.lol.
I'm writing my own blog n i'm not a copycat.
but sometimes i'm posting someone's post but with their permission okay!
i love life n that's the reason i'm writing about life.
i love poem n i love to write it by myself.
well..God gave me a creative thinking n i don't find any reason to waste it!
i love thinking! it's not a big deal for me to think about something especially about life.
i love photoshoot and editing!lol
call me internetholic coz i'm facing my laptop not less than 12 hours.lol.just viewing my facebook,tumblr,others blog,playing on gaia,watching video on youtube and also playing DotA at Garena.lol
call me photoholic coz i love to take picture.almost everyday!lol.everywhere i'll go..it would not be complete without taking picture on the best location.lol
call me danceholic coz i love to dance damn much! every single step make me proud to be myself coz i can dance and move through the musics.lol
i'm gonna end here.thanx for visiting my blog.