This is the Way I Wanted to Be!

Cheers! I'm bored and I have no idea what I suppose to do.. I have no mood to do my assignments. I have no mood to eat coz I'm fasting. I just feel like I want to fly to my hometown. *sigh*Is this called HOMESICK? I'm homesick??Do I? *sigh again* I don't really like this feeling. I'm strong! Yeah!

Just at the moment I'm thinking about going back to home...I suddenly realize that God sent me here to test my strength and determination. I'm the one who ask Him to sent me here..far away from my family..live in another place to gain new experiences and He made it real and...here I am now..far far away from my family..far far away from my hometown.

I've chosen my own destiny. God gave me many choices for my own future..but I've chosen this way to live in my future.. I still remember the day I ask God to make a way and open my eyes to see my destiny. I prayed to Him and I keep believe that He'll give me a good destiny. And, He answered my prayer.

For my SPM examination result,I'm satisfied coz I got what I deserved. My SPM result was quite good.I'm not disappointed even I scored 'D' for my Additional Mathematics. I deserved that score..I know my own strength and weakness.. I'm not really good in any numerology subject although I'm studying science subject as Chemistry and Biology(i'm not good enough in these subjects too..but I'm not bad at all..coz I got C for my Chemistry and B for my Biology |^___^| ).

After received my SPM result, I'm thinking about furthering my study. I guess..that's the hardest moment I ever have coz I have to think carefully where I suppose to go. If I made a mistake on it..maybe I'll not success in my future. I got some offers to further my study.

1. SPA 8 interview offers for medical courses trainee.

2. UITM Kota Kinabalu in Accountancy Course.

3. Matriculation 2 Years Programme.

4. Cosmopoint College (I guess I can choose my desired course)

5. IPG interview offer, majoring in Bahasa Melayu Course.

6. Pra-U @ Form Six in Science course.

But..thinking of my finance support, I refuse to accept UITM coz I have to pay expensive fees and I don't want to be in debt with PTPTn. Plus, I don't have any interest in Accountancy and I have no basic on it coz I'm not taking Accounting subject while I was in middle school.

I'm not interested to further my study at private college such as Cosmopoint college.The fees are expensive and once more...I don't want to be in debt with PTPTN.

Matriculation - I'm tired to study about sciences and I've rejected the offer,too.

SPA 8 interview- yeah~ I've chosen the Pharmacy course and got interviewed...but I'm not really in a mood to be interviewed coz that was my first interview and everything was in rush. I'm not ready for it.Actually, I don't want to be interviewed coz I really really have no interest in medical study...but my mom said I should try..

IPG interview- I hoped for this.I prayed to God so that my name will be in the list. And..tadaaa~~ God answered my prayer! I'm so glad coz my name was on the list to be interviewed. ^^

To wait for the interview result, I entered the Pra-U programme a.k.a Form Six for 1 week and half if I'm not mistaken..but..the truth..I'm really really want to be a teacher..once more..I prayed to God for my interview result..

And the result is......

Tadaaa~~~

Here I am now..I'm furthering my study in Education at IPG Kampus Bahasa Melayu as a teacher trainee..majoring Bahasa Melayu, minoring Pendidikan Jasmani and Pengajian Sosial. That was my choice to be a teacher. Although God gave me another choices...but this is the way I wanted to be..I can't lie to myself that I love to be a teacher. That was my dream since I understand the meaning of ambition. The most important is I want to gain more knowledge while I'm studying here and while I have the chance.. I want to be a real teacher and a great teacher.

I promised to myself that I will never regret my own choice. I want to be success in my life. I want to live in my future as a great person. I don't want to live my life by the others sympathies.I want to make my family proud of me. When people ask about me, I want my parents proudly say 'That's my daughter'.

Dear Family,

I'll make it all for you.

I promise to do my best.

I will never give up even I'm often fall.

I love you all.

p/s: This is just the beginning. The life is just started. I want to live my future not my past..How about you? Think carefully for your future.

>> My grammar suck! Just ignore it. ^__^