Hoping for the HAPPY ENDING

Oh! Conflict of emotion. Dunno how to describe my feeling right now. I gave you hopes. I’ve made you sad every time we talked about this. I’ve made you disappointed. Oh! It’s killing me. Everytime I tried to close my eyes,the one I saw is YOU! Is these people called LOVE? Oh man….!! It’s weird. I mean this feeling is weird. No! No! No! I still love ‘him’. But Yes! Yes! Yes!...You had affected half of my life. And I can’t lie to myself that I might fall in love with you. But I’m not sure about this. I have to confirm this feeling then,I can tell you.Until now,I just can tell you to keep waiting and save your patience if you really love me. But.. how about ‘him’ then? I don’t wanna hurt ‘him’ as he does to me. And seems like my heart feels too hard to let ‘him’ coz I still feel the love for ‘him’. It’s not easy to leave someone you love and someone who’s meaningful to you. But I just can’t help myself. Coz I’m not the right girl for you. I don’t have any package to be your princess. I’m wicked. I’m not kind. I’m a silly girl. I’m such a bird in a cage. Can’t fly to the sky. No freedom at all. Oh!! I’m so tired with all of this matter. I hope it will be solved soon and can breathe free. JJust hoping for a HAPPY ENDING. Tired and lack of idea.